Chasing Freedom

I've awoken every morning for twenty-six years unknowingly attached to so much clutter. Life is the ultimate test, don’t remember where I read that but I did and it stuck with me. Sometimes I have that imaginary balanced life of work and fun, but then the bullshit builds and I find myself jobless, moneyless and alone with my thoughts. Those dark periods usually don’t last that long, however the last one took me for a loop. I became lost in all the clutter until a smooth and gentle hand lifted me out of it. I was surrounded by nothingness.

                “Hello Jay, I am Angel! I’ve come to escort you to your absolution. Will you take a ride with me?” She asked as her magical carriage appeared.

 It felt as though we were molded together, she was an angel indeed. “Yes I will take a ride with you.”

The destination was far from home. Bones ached after such a long distance. The angel held my hand when she spoke to me. “Through that door is where I am truly from. Many aspects of my personality you have not yet witnessed is within. However, I brought you here because I want to give you the opportunity to join my tribe. Enlisting will give you truth and allow you to ascend in every aspect within the universes. Many have attempted this and failed.”

                “My life has made me very tired. I feel stuck and out of place in this world. Joining your tribe sounds likes a new beginning for me, and I do trust you, so I will accept.”

                “Fantastic! You must first attempt the Ten Wonders before joining. Humans can never make it to the first Wonder, but some have made it to the tenth or in between. Your journey is your own and no one else’s. Through that door is our Shaman, a man, woman, tall and short of all colors. Shaman is whatever you need it to be in order to successfully pass through the test. At the end you will be prized with a personal trinket that will forever be the center of your ascension. Go, and I do not need to say good luck to you.”

She released my hand and allowed her body to break down riding the flow of the wind.  I watched her dust hit the door and soak within its wood. The moment I took my first step, I could feel coming from the other side of the door and my chest became filled with instant joy. Whatever the tribe was doing in there, they were listening to some funky tunes. The music called out to me, guided me. I placed my hand around the diamond doorknob and turned it immediately I got sucked inside and the door slammed shut.

Knowing that I accepted enlistment in the tribe, The Shaman appeared to me wearing ears of a lion, a unicorn horn perfectly sharpened upon his forehead and with rainbow wings resting on his back.

                “Hello jay! No one will judge you here! Get comfortable and allow this place of solitude to become your sanctuary as it has became ours. Angel tells me you are willing to join our tribe, therefore I forged this key just for you.” Shaman closed his yellowed sparkling eyes and his horn manifested a very tiny key. “This is yours to place underneath your tongue. Everyone has one; it will connect with your mind and spirit and start you on your test of the Ten Wonders. There really aren’t any rules but one, and that’s to remember that no matter what you see or hear, just tell yourself, it’s the Ten Wonders!”

 I didn't know him; I never met him, though he whispered in my ear over the cascading music, words of knowledge. I knew that once the key was placed, there would be no turning back. Something in my life wasn't right; it felt like I was missing intangible information to keep on living.  So I accepted the Shaman’s key and followed his instructions placing it under my tongue. I waited for the Universes to unlock its doors and open itself to me.

I was taken to the rest of the group. The eight of us stood around a large brown marbled table as the shaman passed his pipe around along with his chalice of water for all to partake. Time itself slowed and left us. We all started seeing space around us differently and shapes dancing to beats our hearts were pounding to. As the chalice was reclaimed by the Shaman, his elbow knocked over the source of the enchanting beverage and that’s when I saw a river form in front of me and then retreat back into the container.

The heat of energy engulfed my skin. I stood there in the mist of eight others absorbing the energy steaming off of them. Never had I felt such an elevated state of existence. My hand trembled and vibrated as I closed my mind to the artificial world I once roamed in unwillingly. I left behind every ounce of unneeded emotion, wants and desires. I opened my eyes and that’s when it hit me, this was a part of the ascension.

 My mind collided with spatial dimensions I never knew existed. I rose higher and higher beyond my physical body as it stood still. Prying eyes gleamed at me with jealousy and I couldn’t stop to admire them. It was happening to me, I was gone, and no longer a prisoner to my own masks I wore over the years. Suddenly the big bang hit my brain hard, sending me to the ground, which made me feel like I was connected to an ocean as the tears fell.